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Well chat, I'm back at it again!

So one of the first things to bring up is that my birthday just happened recently! I am officially MUCH older than before

BUT! I'm trying to take it in stride. I kinda have difficulty with fully processing it sometimes just on account of the AuDHD, cuz I really just feel like a kid piloting an adult body and doing all the stuff that I couldn't do easily when I was little. That part hasn't really changed, and I'm still my (very) immature self, so I'm coping as well as my anxieties can allow!

It also helped considerably that my bf surprised me with a full FNAF themed birthday surprise where we made Fazbear pizzas from the official cookbook and ate a FNAF-themed cake!! I gotta say that it was so very welcome of a surprise and really helped with my overall feelings from the slow encroach towards the retirement home

Also, thanks to my birthday, I have gotten my foot in the door to having some degree of fursuit (even if adjacent and not really) by getting both a kinetic tail and ears! While I don't have it yet because the maker is still working on a lot of orders, I will soon be able to dress kemo at fur events and cons if I so choose! It will also make me feel a bit more "in uniform" when doing fur meetups and stuff and hanging with furry friends when they're in fursuit. I also got the CUTEST and most scene-core collar I could find on Etsy, and LOVE how it feels!

It's actually really soft and comfy to wear, and would love to wear it more if I weren't in an unsafe area to do so. Until that time, I will simply have to kemo at super safe locales, which I don't mind. After all, they're going to be the most chill and understanding of people to wear anything furry-esque around! It's my pipeline to my eventual partial, so it's fine! >;3

In non-birthday news, I have continued my creative pursuits with reasonable success (at least imo)!

In my writing pursuits, I have actually gotten accepted to have one of my poems published!!!! It's only one, but I am just SO SO overjoyed that one of my poems was looked at by an editor, and they said "yes, this is a good poem and worthy of putting in my publication." It's genuinely the best validationg for myself, as I have always been so self-conscious of my creative works, no matter what they are. And on top of that, they are very very lenient on publishing rights, and I still get to own my poem, which is SO FREAKING COOL! It was actually a big worry of mine with giving away a piece of art. It feels like giving a child away or smth, and it was kinda worrying me, but when I looked at the contract, it was very straight-forward and they are really cool regarding author rights. It truly made me feel more comfortable with the creative publishing process, and is the best way for me to test the waters! ^^

Also also! I have been working on my illustration art and, I feel that I'm either noticing improvements, or putting myself in an artstyle that feels both comfortable and right for me, while also feeling "in my skill range" if that makes sense? I dunno, I will likely always feel imposter syndrome being someone that can call themselves an "artist" in anything, but I genuinely do think that there has been some level of improvement! As usual, said uploads will be added to my ever-slowly-growing art page on this wonderful little site!

But with that, I think that's most of what I have to update in terms of quick little blog posts that aren't my status.cafe silly postings. I have had a bit more time of late to focus on my art and keeping track of managing my ADHD, so I will be using that energy to do some touch ups periodically on the site, like that list box on the left that taunts me with its default and unedited self.

See everyone on the flipside!